May 02, 2005_7:11 pm

why am i the ONLY one who ever actually BELIEVES in me. do u kno what it feels like when no one in the world thinks u can do anything in life? No one thinks u can bring up ur grades, no one thinks u can keep a boyfriend for more than a week, no one thinks u can keep a job, no one thinks u've actually decided on a major. They just don't think u can do anything & stick with it. It's so hard to keep believing in urself when no one else does. When people just turn their heads when u start talking about a crush u have cuz they don't think it'll last. or people take bets on how long u can keep a job. when people find out u broke up w/ ur boyfriend of a month & a half & say it was mutual, & they go to ur ex & tell them that they're sorry for whatever u did to hurt them, cuz they think u're the one that did something to screw it up. ugh i dunno. goodbye.